Forgiveness

I've been thinking about the concept of forgiveness, throughout most of the day. It's a hard pill to swallow. There are always going to be people who do you wrong or make you mad. Are there different levels of this that warrant different kinds of grudges? I know that holding a grudge against someone is never healthy...nor does it align with Christ and His commandment of forgiveness.

I seldom agree with the mindset of "fake it 'till you make it." Sometimes though, you have to put that in your mind first, before you can be ok with embracing it for real.

There are people from my past who I've harbored animosity toward. I've written them off and a part of me has even languished over them, to a degree. My forgiveness is a work in progress. I think most cases of forgiveness are works in progress. Even when you think you've totally forgiven, you sometimes need to revisit and recognize where you are, as opposed to where you were.

There's someone who's been on my mind and my heart lately. I was very angry for a long time. Slowly, it turned into apathy. That's when it festers and grows in your soul.

I'm beginning my process of forgiveness. I cried a little. It felt good a lot. I felt renewed. Through my forgiveness, I'm beginning my path to redeeming what had begun to fester and grow malignant.

Unforgiveness is not me. It never was growing up and I don't want it to become that, now that I'm grown.